Hello again. Is there hope?


I know it has been two years since I last wrote a post. And in that year, I only did two posts entirely.

I have missed blogging. Of course, I am not sure anyone missed my blog, but that is ok. I started it years ago to feed my desire to write and be creative. If one person liked it along the way, that’s was a plus. (To that one-hello! How have you been?)

Anyway, today is more wandering thought than creativity. I am sitting at the airport. And of course, while I wait, I am people watching.

I used to travel for work nearly every month, which eventually just ruined my free time and creativity to write on my own blog. Then, COVID struck and I thought, oh I can write now. However, my work became even more time consuming, just from home.

I am flying today, not for work, but a friend’s wedding. Not just any friend though, it’s a friend that I deployed to Iraq with back in 2005. And two other girls from that deployment will be there too. So, even though flying during a pandemic is not ideal, it’s really important. Therefore, I sit. All sanitized. Wearing a mask. And trying to avoid proximity to others.

I cannot lie. It feels different. First, the parking areas at the airport were EMPTY. We were able to drive right up to the parking garage lot. I swear I didn’t notice one car in the Park-n-ride lots that lined the airport road. That was the first majorly different thing. Then, inside the airport there are signs and stickers all over the floor, reminding people to distance and wear their masks. Of course, there are those who don’t pay attention, listen or care. Who knows which reason they are not following directions.

This got me thinking. Having been around the Army for a bit, I am used to following directions. I am used to going the better-safe-than-sorry route. So, it boggles my mind daily when I see and watch people. They argue about wearing masks. They argue about distancing. They argue about everything.

I just don’t get it. Is wearing a mask really impeding on your rights? Heck, I don’t like them either. They are hot. They make my glasses fog up. They are itchy. They don’t look good… and the list goes on. However, if this is one thing I can do to help others not get sick, not get sick myself or just show that I care about people other than myself, I will do it. What’s the big deal already?

And let’s just say, that those scientist people know some things and this mask thing can help. (I know this is a reach for some. But let’s throw out this hypothetical situation.) So IF they do help stop the spread and we all wear them, I have come to the conclusion, there may still be no hope this will get under control.

My lack of hope in improvement is not due to lack of belief in science. It is due to the lack of hope in humans to wear a mask properly. As I sit here, there are masks on most people. Yet, at least a third of them have no idea on how to wear them, or chose to make a statement by not wearing them correctly. Some have them only covering their mouths. Others have them on their chinS…protecting who knows what. Others are fancy and wear them like an earring. And then, there are the special ones who won’t wear them at all.

If getting this thing under control relies on people doing something as simple as wearing a mask, I am concerned.

Well, it’s almost time to take my flight. Stay safe out there folks and hang in there. And, can someone please give me a reason to have some hope? It doesn’t look very good right now.

Is peace possible?


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Peace of mind. It’s a wonderful thing to have, or want to have. Yet, with all the anger, decisiveness and stupidity going around today, I wonder: can anyone really have peace of mind anymore?

We are bombarded with images of crime, cruelness and destruction on a daily basis in the news. Which is not a statement to bash journalists. It’s merely a statement on the status of world events that make the reports. It’s the nature of news to report things that are out-of-the-ordinary, unusual or shocking. That’s what makes it news. I get that.

However, it can be overwhelming. How do us average citizens process it all, let alone make a difference? I suppose all you can do is make an effort, each and every day to do your part.

Whatever that may be, as I am sure it will be different for us all, it should involve some basic factors. Well, at least I would hope it would. And in my opinion, those factors would involve the following qualities…

Ethical: Are our actions ethical? Of course, everyone can define ethics differently and by their culture, religion or etc. So how do we all agree on what is ethical? I suppose the best way to describe this would be to ask, are my actions something I can do in front of/or explain to a police officer, boss, spouse or grandma?  If not, it may be something to reconsider.

Improvement: Do our actions improve anything? Now, this does not have to be on the level of solving cancer or world hunger. Though, those accomplishments are certainly wonderful. But on a daily basis, is what you spend your time on worthy of your time? Does it help move anything forward? This may be a simple as working at a bakery and making the best pastries you can. Or maybe you are that journalist that asks the tough questions on a government leader at some level, so that they stay accountable and honest. Or maybe, you volunteer to take in foster pets. And in all reality, on those really tough days, do you at least take the effort to listen to others, genuinely consider their perspective and think, what would I do in that situation?

Kindness and Respect: Do you act with kindness and respect? Many people say they treat others with kindness and respect, but do they really? Think about it and watch people interact. Step back and think about how you treat others.  Do you speak to people with real interest, approachable tones, and value? This may be as simple as looking a cashier (or customer) in the eye and speaking in a way that says, I see you. Do you listen to what others are saying in total, or are you thinking about your response? Do you jump to conclusions when the situation is unfamiliar or not to your liking? Or do you stop to consider the possibilities and facts and put yourself in their shoes, regardless of their race, religion or party? Or maybe this is being a responsible driver, not cutting people off and even merely acknowledging there are other people on the same road as you.

 

I know that I am not successful at this everyday. However, I do try. I try to be a good person. I try to consider others feelings, situation and experiences. I attempt to spread kindness through smiles, words and actions. I try to value you others. Yet, in all that I still cannot find a total piece of mind. Have you been able to do it? If so, how?

Wandering


I’m sitting in Canada and wondering where my life is going. Don’t get me wrong, I am happy. Years ago, I was a shell and an empty shell at that. I was cold, but I smiled and pretended to be happy. Really, I was dead inside.

Now, I’m awakening to life, happiness and all the potential the world offers. Yet, I understand the dark thoughts that haunt people in the corners of their mind. Some call it sadness. Some call it depression. Some say, get over it. If it only it were that simple. No one wants to be sad. I certainly don’t. But it’s there lurking for no reason.

So, if you understand that thought, know you are not alone. Take each day at a time and seek the joy and happiness that is surely around. Maybe it’s in a flower, a smile, a salad, a pool…. whatever. Find your space of peace and quiet and joy. You can be happy. You just may need to remove yourself from bad choices/people and seek little things until you feel happy on a regular basis. You can do it. You are the only one who can make it happen.